I read this article recently about Queen Elizabeth's Coronation Maids of Honour, and I found myself hung up on this quote from Lady Rosemary Muir (who was, at the time of the coronation, Lady Rosemary Spencer-Churchill):
Soul-searching and self-doubt is such a modern thing . . .
These words came back to my mind today, as I drove to the office, agonizing over yet another screaming-crying goodbye with the Moose when I left him at daycare.
What am I doing wrong that he cries like that when I leave? And why now - this has been our routine since he was a baby?
If Lady Rosemary's words are, indeed, a correct sociological observation, I might have be spared such thoughts, such guilt, were I born to a different time.
Then again, perhaps soul-searching and self-doubt are indicative of the evolution of human understanding and human connection, and I am better off with sadness (and a few tears of my own) if it leads to a better response to my son's emotional needs.
Or is he just going through a phase?
Or maybe I just need some more coffee?
What do you think? Is soul-searching (and, yes, self-doubt) better for us in the long run? Or is ignorance bliss?